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  It feels like I'm the one confusing myself. I know clearly whats wrong and whats right. What I'm suppose to feel, what I'm not suppose to feel.
  It goes down to the very thin down to the core that, I'm afraid, insecure. The feeling of wanting someone to be in my life, doting me. But yet, I'm petrified by the other things that a relationship leads to. I don't want to have someone precious, loving so dearly and inseparable, and eventually, one day, everything will be gone soon. I want to, but I can't. I can't risk it all, I don't want to lose myself. I don't wanna depend on someone and they'll just leave...whose the right one, whose not. I want to give it a try, but I know it's just not a trial and error game. I don't wanna be a fool.
  They keep telling myself to love myself before I can love others. How? I don't know how to love myself. How does it even happen. I've always put other people before myself, their feelings,  their needs. But now, I'm just being selfish, over protective of myself. Afraid of stepping outta my comfort zone.
  Be the one that bring me out of my comfort zone. Be the one that shelter me from the storms. Be the one that shower me with unconditional love and concern. Be the one that stays for our lifetime. Be here with me. Be my everything, and I'll give you my everything.  Be the one.