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  I've been called insensitive, I've been told for not being there. I believed karma had its own way to get back to people. Whatever that had happened, have you done it to someone else? If yes, I guess it's almost fair now. If no, well, really? Sucks then, still living in denial. I ain't no saint, I was wrong. Karma hit me back, and now what? I'm not angry, not pissed, I can't deny I was affected, I was disappointed. Utterly disappointed in myself. Why did I let it happened when I had the chance to stop it long ago? When I could've let go, and stop trying to salvage things? Because I naively, foolishly think that, this love was worth it. Worth my pride. And all I got was being unappreciated. 

  Really, were I always not being there? When there was a fight, was I not there to listen, to comfort, to let you have a place to crash, to put up with embarrassing situation when things got ugly, to walk YOU home almost everytime we met up, to drink despite having submissions, to club even I had entry test/class the next morning, to steal alcohol because we wanted to and didn't spill a single shit when I got caught, to support any single decision YOU made and not judge, to lay my hands on someone that hurt YOU, to put down my pride for YOU to have YOUR closure...touch your heart and ask yourself, was I really not there? Ask yourself, did you do the same for me? How far did you go to protect me, what did you do when you knew I got hurt. Or probably when YOU know I got hurt, what would YOU do? N O T H I N G. Ask yourself, if this love was to be measured, how well do you fair? I know it can't, that's why, that's why I kept on holding on. 

  If you could actually trash talk in front of me, and befriend that person in a blink of an eye, all I can say is, why didn't I knew at that moment, you will, and you did trash talk behind my back. There's a lot of things that I know, of what you say and what you did to solely, selfishly do it to gain benefits only for yourself. and all I want to let you know it's that it's the same for YOU too. I am not jealous that you two got your way back together, I'm just utterly, totally, beyond words grossed out by every actions that you did. You, are one fucking bitch. And that was what, people around me had been telling me, be careful, be cautious, lj lang, someone having ulterior motives. Oh, I should've known, now I know.

  Yknow, I've finally at the stage whereby it no longer hurts. And you're finally out of my life, without having any guilt at all. I don't need you in my life, a pest I should've got ride of long ago. All those guilt tripping and victimize yourself, you're putting up a show, just for yourself. It's sad, because that's all you're gonna be. And to YOU, be careful of who you call your friend (: